i think i got my fuck out in israel, i got all my shit done and now i don’t want to screw anyone really, or be with anybody, i just wanna dance for a long time and maybe hold hands by the lake with somebody but then they disappear the next day. i seem to somewhat enjoy the chase and the initial reward but i tire of people very fast, except my few best ffriends who i adore.

i guess i just don’t know what i want right now. i need something to focus on - in israel i was always distracted but new back at home i think i’ll be focused on losing weight probably and meditation, and rollerblading.