It will be okay.

i need to

wake up 

and smell the coffee

im dying

i am dying

the devil is inside me the devil is me

i am dying

why cant i get up

if you live in BC

hey, like this

the world is so fucking nice to me i kind of dont understand like i want to scream and cry

everyone just keeps TRYING and trying and making efforts and i feel UNDESERVING of this love but i know i am VERY, VERY MUCH DESERVING OF IT

i am just so fucking grateful

love love love LOVEOEOE lovE

getting my bass on monday. it

is so fucking beautiful

i am so in love its quite ridiculous

i miss myself

i miss

i miss… please dont fall

TRUST ME. TRUST ME

TRUST ME

i am sorry, i am so sorry

i am so, so sorry

i don’t want to hurt. i don’t want you to hurt

i am sorry. i am so sorry. i am so, so sorry

i just want to help. i just need to help

i am so sorry for blocking this. i am so sorry

i am trying. i am trying

i am so, so sorry

(i mustn’t be though. am i really sorry? if i was i would be changing things)

i am so sorry. i am so sorry. i need to, i know i do. i know i do, i know i know i know..

cant help but feel frustrated

(but dont take it personally)

but i kind of need to

man, the dualities. man

i miss my Self

i need to get away from this city, need to get away from this life i’ve built myself. there’s so much awaiting me but i find myself stuck in place, stagnation, never truly moving forwards

who am i? who am i? am i ready to find out?

i am so ready. i can’t wait to get out of here. i cannot wait to say goodbye, to say hello, to never return again but to return in a new Light. 

it is soon. it is so soon. i know it is soon. i do not feel the same for i am not the same. i must

Move

ppl are so melodramatic

i mean, i was for the longest time and still am (i had a huge temper tantrum this morning) but like seriously man, people who live their lives in melodrama to avoid the reality of themselves makes my heart ache